Maybe its not important!

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION

2006-01-02T00:22:00.000-08:00

A year that was 2005, now we have entered in a new year, with lots of energy, hopes & wishes.
It is important for every one to Start new year with a resolution, which may contain long term & short term goals. Because GOD has given us a new year to be a better human being & to make this world a much eaier & comfortable place to live.
Though every one thinks about making a New year resolution but seldom do it formally. It is important to write it one a piece of paper, neatly. Using Short Sentences, starting with " I Will".
Stick it to a place where you think you would catch sight of it daily. Take a look at it daily & try to muster up the same energy in your mind that u had while u were writing that. Try to feel the same passion & think accordingly. HOpe this new year brings extreme joy & pleasure to every one. May we all have a wonder full year ahead!

wts the plan??

2005-10-10T03:26:00.000-07:00

and i wonder do we have a contigency plan for natural desastors.
We are ready to send army men on borders in hour of need, but cant we produce those experts in earth quake manegment..
iw ould write something more after doing a little research..!
but surely is a matter we need to think about!!!!

The Blast!

2005-09-28T01:30:00.000-07:00

well on hassan and atif's request here is a b'day post too...'

september 26 was the gr8 day, when i was born. I Guess the time was 10:15 (i dont exactly remember, but mum told me :D). The gr8 venue was "Gangaa Raam Hospital" [:D]

WEll that was the historical background of the day, but now after 20 years, things are quiet different now, I celebrated my Bday with my frnds and family.

On 25th my old school and college frnds came to my home for the party, sehar, sumbal, sumera, Khadija, i invited farry but she coudnt come. We had a great time, With chinesse food, My sis and mum cooked it!

at night, i mean mid-night, i recieved calls and messages by frnds and family, Irfan, called me up, agha & Maham, also did.

i recieved wishes from atif, sehar, Junaid, My cousin Fatima....it was a pleasure reciving all those wishes!!!

on 26th the day was not very much changed except for a few things, i woke up late, at 10(usually i wake up at 7 to 8).

On my way to university i gathered the party stuff, at university we had a great time, with cake, pizza's, roll's, pepsi' patties' it was fun, above all the expression of happiness and togetherness by all the frnds is the most exciting Part!!!!!

heey yeaah there was a gift session, the part which i just love.....[:D]

i recieved so many pic frames, jewellary, candles, jewellary box, and yes frndship band by maham!

mAHAm gave me a hand made card which was awsome, a very true reflection of her creative mind!!! Everyone loved it and the handmade frndship band is a thing not to be forgotton!

the day passed on i recieved lots of wishes on orkut, and lots of gift in person, well some gift are still due, and yes i am not gonna leave those creditors..!!!!

hope i on all my coming b'days i remain this happy & be with my frnds and Family!!!

Faultfull!

2005-09-22T04:43:00.000-07:00

And life is so not good these days...or i should say life is good but may be i am making a wrong use of it. I Am expecting alot from others but may be not delivering the same amount as i am expecting.

I dont understand why people put me into such tough decision making processes?
they expect me to be perfect? but i am still a human being....i do have a heart which breaks..i do have feelings,

and yes it hurts, but what if i hurt someone?
but what if i am in a situation, when i have 2 loved ones on the ends, if i hurt 1 the other one will be happy and if I hurt the other one first one will be happy? But what about me?
i love both of them? and of u ask me to prioratize both of them, Its just so not Happening?

Can u prioratize ur Life and Ur Soul?

its a hard Question!!! pretty hard one.....so hard that it has broken me down into so many pieces...

There is not much charm left for me, in Life, I am laughing because...there is nothing else i can do..U think i am having fun? but i dont think so its fun,
You have fun with people u love, being with people U r supposed to be with, is not fun..!

i dont know..
Life has given me so much, but may be its me who couldnot use it the way it is supposed to be used or passed!

anyways, what so ever it is....i am just going with the flow now..!

i hope this doesnot hurt anyone..me being neutral, is something really had to do, but i am trying do wish me good luck!

Not that much abstraction

2005-09-20T02:30:00.000-07:00

So the New semester has started. I am enjoying the very first free class of my 7th Semester. Life has not really changed, but i still need to learn a few things.

To me Studying at this Level is not about memorizing books, indeed it is about,

"Putting the Things at the Right place"

Understanding and development of Confidence, Attitude. More of a Character building thing.
Your Presentation Style is polished in the institute.

Well, i am not saying to dont have to study, u have to, but I would call it more of A Sharpening tool for the Brain, studying makes ur brain sharp, quick, helps in quick retrieval, recall.....

well thats not all what i think about being enrolled in a Business Institute, there is lot much to say, hope to find some more exact words to put my ideas in here!!!!

did i?

2005-09-17T15:30:00.000-07:00

did i waste 30 minutes on writing the previous blog?????
no seriously....was there a single bif usefull information in that

hey...this is not a new journal where only important news are gona be put up
this is my blog....
and hey....maybe it not important for u...its important for me....coz....these are my true feelings..!

another....race starting!

2005-09-17T15:09:00.000-07:00

at the big day...i came back home from .....and .....handed me over the TCS thing....
damn....i was so very much prepared to see those C and B and yes that very D grades.....
but.....
guess what there was not even a single c...there were 3 A'z and 2 B+'z...
yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh...i did it i crossed the target which i set like 2 years ago.....i never realy tried hard for that......nor did i tried hard this time....i would just simply call it....TEACHER's Innocence...
there greatness............:D:D:D:D:D while i tried my best to score Ds and Bs and Cs....
with this result of mine....i have concluded something....that in this semester of mine...the teachers were good
and secondly.....may be....being awake all night is also hard work...that i did....but i didnt utalize the time to study....eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee yukh....do u think i would get up all night to study those books those course books?
naaaaaaaaaaah...i woke up all of those nights....just to....
talk to my frnds.....on net....well i dun know .....y but i dun feel like studying during the whole semester...:D
chatting with frnds......is hell lot fun....
frnds? did i say frnds.....yaaa...sort of....
just like refilling the old charms.......
with pals....
so the happy days are about to over....coz we now have to dump ourselves back in to that,....routine....
wouuhhhh....
but i kinda like that....coz at least i dunt have to wash dishes at home, wont have to eeeeeee prpare lunch .......
and damn...i wont have to listen to this phrase..."come on do this....u are on vacations....what else did u do all day?
u got to do this.........."
thanx GOD, i like this working routine of mine.....
though i just sometimes feel like banging my head in the walls....not just becoz of the over burden....but becoz i want to make my self realize...that this is reall....i have assignments ....i have to work....
i have to move my self....go on...move this lazy a**
but stilll the motivation has never been enuff for me....infact there have had been no motivation at all.....
i just simply am not botheredd....
ohhhhh am i feeling less?
i dont have that feeling of exams....i use to have some silly stomch ache....that i always thought was this Exams phobia....but no gosh i was so wrong...that was just becoz i used to drink Tea...in the morning without eating anything
....
anyways....
abstraction is what u will again find...in this piece of writing as well....huh...so
i happy i will be at the uni again on monday...
life is gonna be....very......fast....well its is still fast when i am at home..!..
haaah....!

a little confused!!

2005-09-14T00:01:00.000-07:00

What r frnds?
the damn question keeps coming to my mind....
and yes do i have a best frnd....i guess no...............& y is that so....
i dont know!

is it really over?

2005-08-31T15:34:00.000-07:00

ya ya..i had problems....ABOUT...oh well....thats a secret..and let it be one..!
but the good or i dont know the worst ever part is that...its almost over....i dont have to feel that burden...on my heart on my soul...anymore..! as it seems!
am i a free SPIRIT again?
but wts this guilt inside?
a pain...that have i lost something?..or may be i dont realize at this very moment that i have lost something, but a feeling constantly keep coming to me...is saying that "i have lost everything!"
but is this everything "Life"
am i playing with a "Life"?
do i want My "Life" to be over & out?
i dont know..!
and y is it that i always "dont know"
i dont remember the last time..when i had to make a decision and i made that without saying i dont know...!
hunhh.!
may be this is "life" or to be more Specific My Life...and my Attitude!
ohh the only best Part is that..GOD is WIth me..no matter where i go..what eva i do...i trust him...for being with me..hez always been there and i know he'll always be there!
oh yes..and there is never an ending to anything, an ending might be a..or it surely always is a new start.! and i am positively hopeful that i will not let this hope go away!
will not let it fade away!
cheerss!!!!

cute na!

2005-08-24T04:55:00.000-07:00

Maham! sent me this cute cat as a card!

my babies!

2005-08-24T04:49:00.000-07:00

I am a cat lover..i think..in todays world..to be loved is important
but human beings, as they say are turning into machines, they dont have time to love others. So animals i think can occupy those empty spaces, left by people, atleast for me.
Just love animals and in turn the love they give you, is something very special.
When they understand all ur signals, Whistles, moves, claps, its awsome.
When they roll in your feet, i love it!

a few paintings!

2005-08-24T04:35:00.000-07:00

My First Oil Painting..!

2005-08-24T04:30:00.000-07:00

Like 2 yrs back when i was free after FSC
i thought of trying a new medium for painting, mom brought me oil paints..well they are fun to work with.

Nothing Special!

2005-08-19T04:16:00.000-07:00

and what next....again down...well...what so ever is the reason for my bad mood...
Food is always a temporary compensation..
i sometimes feel like..... huhh..!
i dont know!
y the hell do i think about my self so much...i dont remember the Last time when i wrote a line...without an "I". But i cant help it..!
Except for the Philosophy Assignment...which i wrote all night...i started it at about 12:00 o clock..
and ended it up at 8:45 in the morning..
well yes i had break...slept for 2.5 hours only..now i am gonna rush back home and take a long cozzy sleep!

ITS MY LIFE!

2005-08-17T14:58:00.000-07:00

Well ..SInce morning i was so happy everything was going on smoothly i was excited about My Radio Broadcasting and T.V. Production which hopefully be aired some time in near future...

i was happy very happy that i have to attend a wedding ceremony in the evening...but then suddenly an EMAIL came and i became sad..

when i signed in to the blogspot i had so many ideas in my mind...but now after reading the mail...i feel like...crying..!

i dont know why...mail is from a loved one..but a loved one who expects more than i can give.... i am stuck again...

the gist of the mail is that..."i should feel guilty if i want to progress....y? i dont know!"

if i want to make my dreams come true then i have to beg others to let me do what i want to...but thats not me...atleast Not Me..

so i am not going to let anyone take charge of me and drive me no its not possible...becoz...i know if i obey the other person i will be left with nothing...and thats not what i want..!

i will carry on doing what ever i want....i can go to any extreme for that!

I AM JUST GONNA DO WHAT I WANT TO..!

and no one dares to stop me....coz its my life!

Flipped

2005-08-17T04:45:00.000-07:00

Well...i am back now..Hasan and i went to the Mass Communication Department...where we met the TV producer...and yeeeppeee...there are some bright chances that we shall be a part of the TV soon..
i am excited again!
happy again
Excited...
more confident..
more towards ......something...cant recall..the Exact thing!

Coca Cola Once contained COCAINE

2005-08-16T01:01:00.000-07:00

No, it's not your imagination -- that's where the name comes from. The original drink was formulated with "coca" leaves, used to extract cocaine, and "cola" nuts, a source of caffeine. Although Coke contained negligible traces of cocaine at a time when coca leaves were legally used for medicinal purposes, the drink became wholly cocaine-free in 1929, after there was more awareness about the harmful effects of the drug.

Just the start!

2005-08-15T15:24:00.000-07:00

The only question that pinches me is that...am i important for others?
and the answer that i always give my self is "may be not that much important....."

Stuck!

2005-08-15T03:30:00.000-07:00

Right now i am sitting the lab.....i know the class is going on...i know i should get my attnedence marked.,.....but know what i dont care.. coz i can still miss 3 classes...maham have been coming over to me again and again...asking me to come to the class but y the heck should i waste my time and listen to some stupid presentations...
i have an upcoming e-commerce quiz...but why should i care for it?
it will be over soon, if i will be stuck at a question i will simple leave it...but at first will "use my life line of phone a friend" if wont get an answer than will simply leave it...
not a big deal...but y others r tensed...may be becoz of the grade...but that still isnt a big motivational drive for me either...anyways...jana tu paray ga...